my whole life i have had a terrible relationship with my mom.(no relationship really)i feel so uncomfortable around her.she has a bad temper and i was always scared of her. she still intimadates me to this day.we could never have a conversation about anything.she would end up angry every time.if i said the sky was blue she always had to disagree. nobody could have their own opinion.i realize the more time i spend with her as an adult,the less i want to be around her.she is just so difficult.i can't let go of things shes done or put me through either.she turns everything around on me.i sometimes question whether my depression is my fault because she makes me feel so bad about myself sometimes.she was just so mean sometimes.she would slap my across my head and sometimes call me a piece of shit when she was angry at me.well its pretty hard not to dislike someone who made you feel like shit all of your life right? i speak up for myself now and boy does that piss her off....and i like it. i will do every spiteful thing i can think of to her because i am just so angry inside and can't stand how she twists things around and makes everything my fault. i have learned that its just easier to avoid her than tolerate her nasty self. how do you get through situations like these? i just don't like her. what the hell do i do? it eats me up every day.
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