Seems like I am missing something. A part of me or my life that I have nto yet came accross or discovered yet. I wish I knew what it was I needed to find so that I could start looking for it. My relationship defys a big part of who I feel I am. I am not the funny girl I felt I once was. I feel like Steve and I both are unhappy with where we are at together. We never talk. We never cuddle up. Last night I wen tup stairs he was a sleep on the couch and I laid down beside him and curled up to him. He asked me why I was holding him and I said because I missed him. He said soem smart remark then told me to gp find someone else to hold. I go tup and came down stairs. I cried, then I got angry. I asked him about it today but he denys saying it. I am not strong enough or in the financial position to go out on my own. I have no family but this one that I have created. My credit is way past poor and I am unemployed. I have been in school for the past year but I know if I find a way to leave I will have to quit to work full time. I love my kids but I am losing myself. I am 25 and my whole life has been full of depression.(not clinical)
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