I have been married for 4 years. I married my husband a year after I was divorced. I had been married to my children's dad for 12 years. At the time when we were going through such a hard time he was there. He was a calm, safe place to fall. He had never been married before. He seemed to care for my kids deeply since their Dad moved so far away. I think I overlooked many issues, such as emotional maturity, ability to manage money and sexual addiction. We are in counseling and have been for 3 years. He says is is going to do something, but his follow up is horrible. To make a long story short we lost our house, I had to threaten to leave him for him to get a job instead of owning his own business. His decisons have financially devestated our family. I have developed depression, anxiety, and just a constant feeling of what is he going to do next. How do you know when it just isn't worth the fight anymore. Do I put my kids through losing another Dad? How do you know if you are truly making the right decision? I am a Christain and that also plays a role in "Isn't marriage till death do us part!" But some days he makes me feel like I am losing my mind. How am I supposed to be there for me kids. One with ADHD and anxiety and the other with Tourettes and Aspergers. How can I be the Mom and person I am supposed to be when the stress levels are so high all the time! I really would appreciate any clarity in this area. I want a partner in life, someone to help me make decisions when I am weak. Someone to ponder life with, but I feel like I am raising 3 teens instead of 2. He fights with my 14 year old daughter like he is her brother. It is just crazy!
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