I feel horrible, I just had a huge fight with my middle daughter. she push me so hard that I exploited and slapped her a couple of times. I lost control, something I have not done in a long time. I really did not wanted to do it, I try to talk to her and I told her that she was getting me really mad, I told her to stop and she kept, aggravating me and acted as if she did not care. I felt her hate, her unhappiness and that really made me sad, and really hurt. I hit her, I can't believe it. I can't stop crying........... She took all her belongings and she left, she said that she will never come back. I am afraid for her, and I am so sorry I did what I did. I love her so much, she really hurt me. but I think I hurt her just as much by putting my hand on her. I just want to disappear right now. I feel all alone and desperate. I'm also wandering how she is feeling. She left with her boyfriend. I feel such a pain in my heart and I don't know now to deal with it. she seem as if she didn't care. I am regreating not telling that I love her with all my heart.
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