My dad became addicted to prescrition drugs 10 years ago. He overdosed last year. He did so many awful things during his addiction. He said a lot of really hurtful things too. I don't know how to deal with missing him so much and also hating him so much. My mom won't even let us say his name or discuss anything concerning him. I am in therapy because I am so depressed about it. I feel like I will never get any relief because the person who hurt me is dead and can't talk to me. But, if he were still alive I don't think that he would offer any comfort anyway. I feel stuck and frustrated and heartbroken. I want and need to get through this, but don't know how. I feel like I am sinking.
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