Hey new to this group anyways making a topic bout my probs with fam.What can I say my dad was married had his family and screw my mom n came me..She went on and said she will married the first person that tell her because she was heart broken of how men treated her or whatnot,and she did which is now my stepdad since 4 years old.Which I think its the most bull shit excuse she has and I'll tell you why right now,Hes nothing but a verbal abbusive drunking coke addict fool that thinks hes young and can do whatever the fuk he wants.He treats her like shit..And she has 2 of his girls one its 10 the other one was by mistake she wasnt suppose to get pregs shes 1.So Im like the fukyn outsider cause hes family has a bad view of kids that are not from the family,Im basicly the only one who isnt part of that fam And Im good with it cause fuk NO I wouldnt want to be part of that zhitty family,I rather not know my fukyn dad.Anyways I just hate it here they always fighting there no fukyn day where there not yelling..I have self steem issues and feel depress kuz I have acne and I developed and eating issue I only eat 1 meal per day,Im doing this to get my fukyn moms attention to move out of this house so I can seek help,and start all over again but it seems Im never gonna get out this zhyt hole.My stepdad is the reason I have all this crazy though in my head he has put me down sicne the day my mom brought me from Mexico when I was 8-9,I guess it finally paid of kuz Im fuked.Literally I dont go out of my house for the last year and a half pathetic right,Thats how much Im mest and feel worthless thanx to him.My mom all she does is work she has 2 jobs and I take care of my lil sis since I dropped outta school 2 years ago for feeling depress..I never used to be home I was a slut smoking weed having sex and didnt want to keep on gogint that way so I stopped hanging round with them people but now I dont go outside for shyt kuz I have panic attacks prob cause of the weed and think of all the stupid shyt I did before and get more depress.I dont know what to do to get this bitch attention(mom)I cry infront of her and she acts like nothing happening,I dont eat and she says Im just lazy..Well I am im very weak now since not eating and always sleeping and she thinks its normal or doesnt give a fuk she only thinks about saving money to built a house in Mexico and go have a good life with her sister,And fuk everyone else,God sometimes I feel like taking a knife out and stab her to see if that way she'll pay attention to my fuked up self.
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