This is something that I find very hard to talk about, but Im tired of holding this garbage in. I was divorced in 2002 and have felt for a while that there was "something" going on between my brother and my ex-wife. I confronted them on this and they both said nothing was going on and that would never happend. Which I knew was a lie because I saw them together walking hand-n-hand through a store with my daughter along side. I moved to another state to get away from the mess and then come to find out that they were living together with my daughter. That was very tough to deal with. In dealing with the divorce I went through a very distuctive phase and did not want to live. I tried to kill myself because I felt I worse than worthless, and was committed to a hospital. Two days before I was going to be released my Mom called and informed me that my brother and ex were now married, so much for nothing going on huh? (she was not going to tell me until I came home, but figured that that kind of info would push me over the edge. So my therapist had her tell me in the clinic where I would be safe. Needless to say I had to stay a bit longer that expected. I come from a military family and through the years my brother was my very best friend, we were very close. So I could not understand why he would do such a thing. My daughters uncle is now her step dad, what kind of shit is that? Ever since this has happend my family has been destroyed. My brother and I have not spoken in almost seven years. My Mom and Dad are suffering because they want our family to go back to the way it used to be, but I just can not see that happening. He broke a code that friends should not break, let alone brothers. I guess just because you are born brothers does not mean you will stay brothers no matter how close you once were. I have to admit it hurts like hell not having him around, but life does move forward and so will I. It just sucks the everyone except my brother and ex are in such pain. I guess time will heal all of our wounds. Its time to get busy livin' again. Thanks for letting me vent.
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