My husband and I have been together for 3 yrs yet just recently married. I just recently discovered that he kept a part of his past hidden from me. I now understand why when certain incidents happened in the past his answers never made sense. He can never give me a straight answer for anything even when I have found out his secret and confronted him. His inability to be honest has caused me to become obsessed over everything. I don't trust him and I resent him. The resentment stems from the fact that I believed he loved me and when he asked about my past I shared everything with him. Once we moved in together and made me completely dependent on him he turned my past against me. He hurt me deeply for 9month so I distorted my own truth so the pain could stop. So now I'm probably as guilty as him but now he expects me to be understanding about his past and don't want me asking anything on the subject. I however have many unanswered questions. I'm not mad at what he did, it's his lies and he can't admit to them. And the fact that he hurt me deeply for 9months and now he wants me to get over this recent discovery in one discussion. I have so much resentment, anger and hurt. And now I'm obsessed on what other things he's hiding from me. I have no peace, I can't trust him. I don't believe a word that he says now. It's killing me. I've been hurt in the past and that only adds to my anger. I really meant to love him forever when we got married but there is a battle within me. Is it possible to love and hate someone at the same time?
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