My dad is passed out right now. he promised my sisters and I that he would stop drinking. I'm staying out tonight. I'll be back either tomorrow or the day after. I can't be near him. He's going to die before I'm 18. He was supposed to die when I was 10 apparently. I don't know what to do. I want another family. Even if it's a fucked up one. I don't care. I need a parent so bad. I want to die. I have no reason to live. I'm constantly horribly sad and no one cares about me. I don't have any kind of parental figure that cares.
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