I was just reading an old thread of discussions about setting boundaries and it mentioned the manipulation that goes on in so many of our relationships. One of the things was this... I'm walking out on you... thing. This is something I deal with pretty much daily with my husband. He is always leaving. Maybe I should think he's not by now, but every time he says it, I'm convinced. And I love him so much I always beg him not to. It is one of the worst things he does to me. (And he knows it.) But what I am wondering... is this a manipulation? Is he really leaving or does he just want me to beg him not to? And how should I react to this? I want so badly sometimes to let him go. Once, he left, and I was strong enough to stop crying and get myself together. I started writing in a journal and many of my thoughts were that this was really better. I was talking myself into it. Just let it be. Let it stop. But then he came back and started cutting himself. And I had to take care of him. Nightmare night, that one. Once he was back, the idea of losing him was too much to bear again. Anyway, I guess the question is... should I be handling this differently? (Pretty sure I know the answer, actually, but it is so scary to think of him driving like a maniac down the road with his eyes closed. How can I let him do that? What if I put my foot down and I never see him again? I don't think I could handle that.) Any insight?
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