i had posted a discussion earlier about my ex who is drinking and sleeping around. he is bipolar and not himself...according to a mutual friend. i know if he is hospitalized or if i was to get an intervention this would help him, but we are not even friends anymore. it was a horrible breakup and i don't even know if it was a manic episode that ended us at all. i have no idea what happened. and i'm not sure if i want the crazy back into my life. he was very abusive, later in the relationship...drinking. i feel helpless. i'm not sure if i can just chalk up this lose to the disease or if he just stopped loving me. he seems all over the place, and it hurts that i wasn't enough to or strong enough to help him. i pleaded with him to not drink, and to get help. and you never know mabey he's with one of these girls he was sleeping with and is happy and normal...though history does not say this with him. i feel like i was just another girl in his path. i was though the only one he met while on meds, i wish the best for him, but just have no one to understand all the thought in my head about this, even though its been three month. i guess what i'm saying is i feel bad because i'm choosing to move and go on with my life, and i can't help him because he doesn't want it, plus he has hurt my family and me so much that i almost can't. i miss his son, and what i thought was what we were going to be.
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