My boyfriend has attempted suicide alot. he has major fears of rejection so whenever we have an argument or i indicate a fear that things might not be working he assumes i am leaving him and gets depressed (alot of times he is already depressed) and attempts. alot of times he says things to me like "you'll know one day how much i love you" or "i guess i know what i have to do now since i always f*** everything up". i understand that it's not him but it feels like emotional black mail. I love him and i want our relationship to work but sometimes i feel trapped. like if i did think it wasn't working, i couldnt leave because he would kill himself. and sometimes i feel like he does it to engage me. like if i tell him i don't want to argue anymore he will say "oh i guess you are leaving me so i know what i have to do now" so that i will continue to engage in the argument with him. i feel so bad because i know that it is a cry for help but it seems so manipulative.
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