Hi Everyone. I'm new to this group, so I'll give you the background on my situation: I've been with my husband for 9 years, married for 6. We have a beautiful 4 month old daughter. In the 9 years we've been together, hubby has left me 6 times saying he doesn't love me anymore, he doesn't know why we ever got married, I'm a bad person, etc. Then he comes home and everything is "normal." About 3 years ago, he was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and was put on medication and we haven't had any problems or "episodes" since then. A week ago, he told me he fell out of love with me and did not want to be together anymore. He left our home for 4 days but came home after I told him I needed his help with our baby (she was sick). He's been home for a few days and things have gotten soooooo much worse. Now he wants a divorce and he says he has no feelings, he feels empty but does not think that it's a problem. When I walk into a room he looks at me with hatred and looks like I'm the most disgusting person on earth. He says this isn't his bipolar, but a few weeks ago he was completely fine. It was like his feelings turned overnight. I can't talk to him about this because he's so adamant he doesn't have a problem and our friends and family don't want "to take sides" so they treat him like everything is ok, which just makes me look like a fool to him. I just want to shake him and make him see... I wish I could rewind his brain or something. I'm so worried about what this is doing to our baby. I know it's turning me into a basket case. What am I supposed to do? I will do anything to help him and make him better.
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