I have continued to find out everything I possible can about BP and have given him his space, whatever he asked for. I have had a rough time of it too but he said he'd always be there, never leave, he loved me. I have dealt with my issues on and off for 20 yrs. and I'm in a good place. The thing that happened is I was safe in this relationship, my past marriage was physically abusive and this one was great. I didn't expect my feelings from my past to come flooding out but they did because I knew he'd never hurt me, but he did. We were at the therapist just last night and on the phone later he said I'm the best thing to ever happen to him and he'd fight for me as I did for him. He told the therapist he'd never leave me, but today he did. I'm ripped apart, I love him so much and I'd do anything for him. I don't know where to turn or what to do. I'm a very giving person, and one who likes to talk things out until they're resolved. One thing I've learned is not to do that with him, but no matter what he asked for or what I did for him, he left me anyway. What do I do now...I feel so hurt and torn up inside.
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