
Family & Friends of Bipolar Support Group
This community is dedicated to parents, siblings, grandparents, other relatives and friends of someone who is Bipolar. The purpose of this community is to help families and friends develop greater patience and understanding, as well as maintain a positive, caring relationships with those diagnosed as Bipolar.

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Im just going to repost my journal entry b/c i don't feel like retyping
he= my b/f
So every few months or weeks he decides he is going to clean up his life, turn over a new leaf so to speak, and its great for a wile, it will last a few days maybe a week at the most then he will go back to drinking, smoking pot, thinking about drugs etc. So last night was day 2 of him not drinking and smoking, and he is also going to slowly try and quit cigarettes and coffee. Its great when he is sober, I am so proud of him for not drinking and smoking (especially when he has some weed at the moment) I honestly have never seen him with this much willpower before. BUT I am scared to get my hopes up.I am almost certain he will come crashing back down again, which is terrible to say, but I/we have been through this before. I dont want to be a hardened person who never believes what he says, but I dont want to let myself keep being disappointed, heartbroken, let down.It makes me want to call it quits, I mean is this going to be my life? I want him so badly to stick to it and all I can do is support him and see what happens. I slowly see us fading again.
I was just wondering if any of you go through the same things? Feeling like things are going to change, but dont want to get your hopes up. Wanting to be happy but knowing in the back of your mind whats going to happen. Im getting tired of putting on the happy face...
sorry this is kind of a vent more than a question i suppos.
he= my b/f
So every few months or weeks he decides he is going to clean up his life, turn over a new leaf so to speak, and its great for a wile, it will last a few days maybe a week at the most then he will go back to drinking, smoking pot, thinking about drugs etc. So last night was day 2 of him not drinking and smoking, and he is also going to slowly try and quit cigarettes and coffee. Its great when he is sober, I am so proud of him for not drinking and smoking (especially when he has some weed at the moment) I honestly have never seen him with this much willpower before. BUT I am scared to get my hopes up.I am almost certain he will come crashing back down again, which is terrible to say, but I/we have been through this before. I dont want to be a hardened person who never believes what he says, but I dont want to let myself keep being disappointed, heartbroken, let down.It makes me want to call it quits, I mean is this going to be my life? I want him so badly to stick to it and all I can do is support him and see what happens. I slowly see us fading again.
I was just wondering if any of you go through the same things? Feeling like things are going to change, but dont want to get your hopes up. Wanting to be happy but knowing in the back of your mind whats going to happen. Im getting tired of putting on the happy face...
sorry this is kind of a vent more than a question i suppos.
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not have much hope things will change they hardly ever do..
Is to build walls around your heart.
Is too, slick up your back and let their rants slide down
you have to let of your needs and focus on theirs..
i know its hard too..
Anyway, not sure if i'm being helpful. I just know how hard it can be. Hang in there!!
I stopped hoping about ten years after my guy's diagnosis -- and gained about 100 lbs trying to "stuff" my feelings. Having your hopes dashed repeatedly is a soul-killer.
I stayed as long as I did because I had made marriage vows. Why are you staying?