A year ago I started dating a wonderful man, though not in the best or proudest of circumstances. But we were happy and saw a great future for us. In August his ex-girlfriend (who he was still living with) found out that we were seeing each other and took it very badly - that was the first time I saw him spiral down and do a 180 about our relationship. Every now and then it seems to be going well, but it's never gone back to where it was in the first months. One of his best friends died in November and that was another set back. Eventually in January this year he got proper diagnosis and medication. Hi is bipolar, ADHD and had temporal lobe epilepsy. Like a previous post I read here I've gone from being his shining light of a future to this someone who just pushes him and makes things worse and who he never wants to see or speak to again. I know I have not been as supportive as I could have been - by the time he was diagnosed I had already given so much to him and recieved nothing but a lot of abuse back and a dumping in favour of his ex (twice). So now we just make each other miserable and fight all the time - I've taken what he's said before personally and so much has happended esp regarding his ex and feelings for her that I don't believe he cares, even when he manages to tell me he does. I wish I had been more supportive, but I have needs too. Right now we're trying not to have any contact to give each other some time and space to heal on our own. I still think it's just an excuse and he's just running away again. I don't know if he does care and does want me. Part of me just wants to fight and keep pushing him to make up his mind and stick with it and start keeping all the promises he's made. But I know as well that pushing him doesn't help him and his reaction when I've pushed doesn't help me because that's when he gets nasty and cruel. And, I really feel like I've failed him over the last 6 months
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