My wife was just admitted today for hospitalization. She is BP1 and did some self mutilation (non life threatening). She told me 2 days before that she is in love with someone else and wants to move away. I feel so hurt. I don't understand why this happens. She has done hurtful things to me in the past and I've stayed in our relationship. I've always been committed to her but I feel like this is just a dagger to my back again. She tells me that she still loves me but I don't know what to believe. I feel like I can't believe anything she says anymore even though I want to. I feel so confused and mixed up. I love her and always will. I do everything for her and this is what I seem to end up with. I don't know what to do. Maybe she'll get better and get the help she needs at the hospital. She's currently on meds but maybe they just weren't right for her. The worst part is that I think she never tells me or her doctors how she really feels and that just makes it even harder to deal with. I feel so unloved right now and can't find the words to explain it any other way..
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