I think my father is trying to hurt me. His gf and him both use DS and I think they used it the wrong way. My brother, whom I was the closest to in my family just past away December, 12th. I'm having a hard enough time trying to deal with this. My father has'nt always been there for me and I think it's due to his addiction and bi-polar. His gf is also bi-polar. I feel like my child hood mainly consisted of broken promises. My sister, brother and I were left in foster care to fend for ourselves. Dealing with my brother's passing right now has come to a hault due to a nasty, offending journal entry that was open to alot of people for a period of about 2-3 weeks. This journal entry was written by my Dad's gf of about 6-7 months. She explains my brother's death and then goes onto bash my mother, by saying she's a whore. I don't have that good of relationship with her but I think that my Dad's gf has no right to do this. She also says that my mom's side of the family basically had no right to sit farther up in the funeral home than my Dad's side. Then she went on saying that my Uncle should'nt receive part of my brother's ashes.I told her how I felt without showing my true anger and my Dad replied to me sticking up for my grandparents by saying when they took us in, they could'nt wait to get rid of us. which is total BS. He's being totally childish and instead of rectifying the situation, making it worse and intentionally going out of his way to hurt my feelings. I know my brother would not want this. My father says I'm wrong and basically am just like my mother.He says I'm wrong and owe him an apology.Does he even know right from wrong? I know he has a lot of guilt for what he's done in the past but I'm not gonna walk on eggshells for him anymore. Us kids have way more hurt from all of this and I'm sick of him saying poor me all the time. My sister even agrees with me about all of this and says it's not right and it's disrespectful on more than one level.She hates my mom and seems to think my dad's gf just did this due to jealousy. I have always been the one in the family to talk to everyone and my caring heart is only coming back to bite me. Currently I'm not talking to either of my parents and I wish I was like my brother and sister by trusting their foster parents. Instead I believed my parents and it's done nothing but hold me back. It feels like they're always finding more ways to hurt me. Should I just let go of them?
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