Hello my friends, I haven't posted or commented in a while and I felt I owed ya'll an explaination. I have been taking care of my sick momma for 3 years now and 2 weeks ago, she decided she has had enough and made the agonizing decision to stop all live prolonging measures and come home on hospice. Mom passed away this past Friday and her service was Monday. I can't figure out how to function without my mom, who among many other things, was the only one who supported my decision to be with my fiance. She was my everything, my mentor, my best friend, my rock and my cheerleader and I miss her so much it hurts. I apologize for my activity level on ds dropping off for a while and as I process through my grief and pain, I will get back on the horse I just need some time to heal. I read every post and I do my part still as far as commenting on articles and writing/calling/emailing my local, state, and federal officials, I am just doing so in my own time. I am at a loss here my friends. Both of my parents are now deceased (i'm only 36), my soon to be hubby is in prison, me and my kids are grieving and quite honestly, I feel like I'm drowning. I have been off work for 2 weeks so haven't even had the money to talk to my man for support. I had a dear friend of mine put a little money on my phone 2 weeks ago so that my mom and my man could talk and say their goodbyes and I am so grateful but I feel so selfish b/c now I really, really need to hear his voice and I am so craving his comfort and support but until I get back to work, that simply can't happen. At this time my dear friends, I am asking for 2 things; moral support and if there is anyone out there in the Indianapolis Indiana area who has any job leads. I only have a part time job because I am in school full-time but since I lost my mom, I have also lost half my rent (we lived together and split costs). I am desperate here and need more work ASAP or I will soon lose my apartment and since I have no more family, I have no where to turn or go should my 8 year old and I get evicted. I am open to suggestions and leads of any kind within reason. Short of compromising my integrity, I will accept any work. Please, please note, this is not an attempt at solicitation, I am just a desperate mommy trying to save my own butt. Thank you for listening and sorry again, for not being on here as much.
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