After Chris continually lied and cheated on his ex (not to make excuses for him, but she treated him like dog crap, always cutting him down, treating him like he was stupid etc...), and lied to me about her almost the whole time I was pregnant (I never even knew she existed until I was 3 months pregnant), and then hearing stories from other people about him sleeping around with other girls while he was with the ex and while I was pregnant (we still were not together), am I stupid to think that he's changed enough NOT to do those things to me? A part of me thinks he just needs a good woman (some other people say that too) that will respect him, and treat him good (and I do) and make him feel good about himself (I do that also) and make him feel loved (yup, that too) and he would stay faithful to me, but another part of me thinks that he's never going to change, he's always going to be the playboy type, he'll never grow up, and he won't stay out of trouble. I want so bad to give him a chance, but sometimes my doubts overcome me and I just feel like giving up on him, but the only reason I don't, is because of our son. I'm not going to be with him BECAUSE he's the father of my baby, but if we can work things out for our son to have both of his parents in the same house, then that's a great thing, and if he can be the man he says he is now. I do love him, and I want to be with him (like I said, not because he's the baby's dad), and I want to have faith in him. He says he's changed and he loves me and wants only me. He even says he's IN LOVE with me (I can't say that I am IN LOVE with him yet-big difference), and he will do everything he can to get me to trust him. I really hope he does, but what if I find out months or years from now that it was just a waste of time?! I have been hurt in every way possible and I can't do it again, I only have so much strength in me.
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