Hey all, I just need to vent a little. I've been reading a lot of the new topic posts and I can't shake the feeling that I no longer belong here. I know a lot of you have asked me to stick around and continue with being a part of this support group but I just don't feel the same way before. Maybe I'm just still emotional after the break up. I know I am because he keeps trying to call and is now having people three way or call me for him and he still doesn't know yet because the letter hasn't arrived. I have caught myself a couple times second guessing my decision. His trial date is set for the 19th and part of me wants him to get out of that dreadful place, but part of me wants the mandatory space to continue for just a little longer, long enough at least for him to get the letter and have some time to heal. Is that selfish of me to want that? When he gets out I'm going to have to see him to give him his stuff, I still have his pack and his skateboard and all. I know I am doing as my mother says and "fretting over something that hasn't happened" I guess in a sence I'm still apart of this group due to the fact that my cousin is in prison and will be for another 10-15 years but as I said it just doesn't feel the same. I hope to get out of this rutt soon so I can continue to be of help to others but I apologise for my absence of support, my head's just not in it lately. I hope you all are staying strong and pulling through one day at a time.
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