We'll it's been 4 months and I still can't believe my reality, I can't believe I sleep alone at night without him by my side, I can't believe I face everyday without him. I just don't get it! This wasn't supposed to happen...it's not in MY plan. I was supposed to be a stay at home wife and have children and do all the normal things that parents do. Now, I look at this coming school year (my daughter is starting kindergarten and Jayke preschool) and I find myself wondering what I'm going to say when I sign them both up for class and they ask about there Dad....I'm not divorced, I'm not going through a seperation...he's in prison....but I'm not going to say that to anyone. UUgghh, If it wasn't for our children, I don't know how I'd put on foot in front of the other...I will NEVER let them down and I know he never meant for this to happen. I haven't had such a beautiful loving, caring, considerate, do anything for me or his children man ever in my life....his heart is pure gold and he shouldn't be there. His partner dragged him into business with him took advantage of his eagerness to succed and took a lot of money from us personally and now my husband is in prison with him just for being his partner...doesn't matter if he didn't have the intention that his partner had (defrauding investors) just pure and simple...your his partner and your guilty too!! I just don't understand a system that takes a wonderful man anyway from his family and never has even talked to him (to this day the prosacution has not talked to him personaly to get his side of the story) to them it's just like...well we we're able to get the judge to sign the arrest warrent....enough said. We'll it's not that simple....our lives, our famlies and most importantly our childrens lives have been very distrupted...devestated really. I know I've been rambling, it''s late and I need to go to sleep. So many, many more thoughts. Ultimatley though, it's not just him that they imprison, it's the wife and kids too...horrible!!
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