Hello everyone: happy mothers day. I am 46 years old. I have a 21 year old that has been in county jail for 5 months and is waiting for trial where he is facing 10 to 30 years. I have so many questions in my life what if i would have done things different? My son is my life and this is a problem i cannot fix for him. He has been in trouble with the law since he was 16 and spent from 16 to 19 on a juvenile program. Came out and in less than a year he messed his adult record. when is he going to grow up? my biggest fear is dying and not seen him a productive member of society. I have so many hopes and dreams that were shattered and so many "first" things that will not happen. I am so depressed, comfused and feel like no one cares or understands me. I am so sorry i am rambling on.
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