Well, it finally happened! I got my first phone call last night. I was so excited, and nervous. He sounded so good. I was so happy to hear his voice. We only get 15 minutes, which felt like 5. I don't know if the whole phone thing is a good idea. I mean, it felt so good to hear him & talk to him. But then again, it made me sad, and ache for him so badly! So bad I told him to call me again this morning! So he did. I could tell he couldn't be so open and emotional as in his letters. He would lower his voice when he said I love you or that he missed me. But I fully understand. So now I sit here hurting. Wishing so much he was here. I could've talked to him all day. But my bank account says I can not! You know? He said he was ok...He said he was a third of the way through his sentence. I tried not to sound sad, or being up anything sad things. But once I got off the phone I sobbed like a little girl. All the Holidays about to come up...Makes it even more rough. Today is one of those days that I feel will be a very long roller coaster ride. I miss him...I need him...I love him...Thanks for letting me come here & get this off my chest.
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