I got a call from Rick a few minutes ago. The conversation even started off bad. The first words out of his mouth were "I only have 5 minutes to talk." and then it was "You're gonna be mad at me.". So...my mind starts racing. Wondering what he's talking about? What am I going to be mad at him for? What did he do? He then proceeds to tell me that he's being moved to behind the wall sometime next week. At first, he wouldn't tell me what happened....he was so worried that I was going to REALLY be mad at him and leave him. But, then he said that he got UA'd yesterday --- and it was dirty. He said that he thought he should of been clean by now, but obviously wasn't. I said that I'm not mad -- and quite honestly, I don't know if I actually am or not. I'm more disappointed. He's putting in a request to where I can still go up and see him next weekend for a contact visit all day (like normal) but after that, if I choose to go up, visits will be behind glass and only for an hour. Now because of this dirty UA, he's getting some good time taken away, he REALLY has to go to this stupid progam now (he'll have to be moved to another prison a year before he gets released), and now we can't have contact visits for 90 days. I know it's only 90 days...but still. When you haven't seen someone in so long -- and when you normally do see them, you get to touch them and hold their hand and kiss them -- and now all of a sudden that is all taken away, it really sucks!! Anyways, enough of that....about a week ago or so, Rick said that he wasn't too sure about getting married and having kids and all that jazz. He said that by the time he gets out, he's afraid that he's going to be too old to start having kids again. BUT, with all that said, today when he called.......he asked when we are getting married. Now I'm just flat out confused!! One day he doesn't want to get married and then the next day he does!! OH what to do?!?! I don't know anymore!!!! UGH!!!!!
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