So...it's done :(. 30 years...30 long ass years and i am losing it. we went to court yesterday and i am still hopin that i'll wake up from what i wish is jus a horrible dream :(. our daughter will be 3 next week. she will be about 30 something when he finally gets to come home. she will be an adult living her own life by then and i think this is what is KILLING me the most. i need someone to talk to so bad. everyone keeps tellin me its ok and to stay strong but ITS NOT OK!! an i dont see it bein ok for a lonnnggg time. i feel so ANGRY at him. keep askin why. WHY?? did we not matter at all to him for him to go out and do this?? we have to suffer jus as much as he does and we didnt do anything to deserve this. WHY GOD? i do not at all agree with what he did an yes i believe he deserves to pay for his actions but we dont. our daughter doesnt. i may have chose this way of life but she had no say so. i could have prevented her from being fatherless had we just not been together and had a child. now she will live most her life without him. i will live without him. an my love for him is stronger than anything. i dont know what to say to him to comfort him. cant tell him to keep his head up an its ok if i cant keep my head up an i feel like this wont be ok for a LONG time. his sentencing an crime made it to the front page of the newspaper. :( now everyone is gonna see him as this horrible monster when i know better. im gonna lose it. im so mad, an hurt an confused but mostly just ANGRY!! i jus wanna know WHY?? someone please help:( i dont know how to get through this. then others keep tellin me i deserve better an to move on but we have been together through thick and thin for 7 years now an I DONT WANT TO MOVE ON. not now not ever..jus want him..need him. god someone please help. i cant take this :(
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