My dude (well my ex, but I still consider him mine) was locked up a year ago come June 24th. This is his first time of ever being in trouble with the law and he got 6 years. We've been off and on for 10 years due to the fact that we were both into doing things that kept us from really settling down with each other. But before he "this world", we decided to make it official and be a couple. Going into this situation, I thought it would be soooo easy because he is the man I love, but I'd never been in a relationship where I had no choice but to be away from my man. It got hard for me not having him here by my side to help me raise my son. We've never kept anything from each other, so I let him know that I didn't feel as if I could do it. I didn't think I had the strength to be an inmates girl, but that was the worst decision that I made and now he feels as if I let him down. Then, another chick (who's had her eye on him for awhile) comes along with all these promises to him and he's biting the bait hard! I just so upset with myself because I allowed this to happen because I didn't know how to deal with the incarcerationg situation. And I'm sad because I don't think I'll ever get my man back. I write letters to him everyday. My son and I go and see him every weekend, but he doesn't see the "real love" that I have for him. I cry every night over my decision and my sensed outcome, but I'm his biggest supporter and I'm gonna fight and hold on til the end.
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