My husband has been in AZ prison for almost a year. I never imagined my life would turn out this way. I feel so many different things that I can't name them all. My mom is great but she doesn't understand how I feel. She thinks I should look at like he's in the army serving overseas. I've been with James 3 1/2 years married for 2. He's been in and out for the last 1 1/2 years. The worst part is we have a 2 year old daughter. He's missed so much and she's starting to realize that he's not around. I show her pictures but I know she doesn't understand what prison is. So I don't know what to say to her. Everyday is a struggle. I never thought I would be raising her alone or the sole income. The hardest thing is waking up each morning and realizing all over again this isn't a nightmare but my reality. I feel lost like half of me is missing. James thinks any day now he's going to be served with divorce papers. I would never do that. I love him too much. He tells me that most other guys talk about how their women cheat or don't stay around. I would never leave him, but I'm running out of ways to make sure he knows that. Does anyone have any advice. I haven't been to see him because I don't live in the same state. That too is so hard. I never thought I would have to go this long before seeing him. I won't be able to visit until after the new year which seems years away. Right now I'm living day to day. I don't know what to tell people who ask where he is. I don't want to say we're seperated but I don't want to tell people prison. What does everyone else say. It feels like I no longer have anything in common with my friends. The best times I've had since this has happened is when I've gone to visit him and gotten to talk with other people who know what I feel. That's one reason I joined is because I need people who can help me thru this because we're all going thru the same thing.
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