I'm not talking a day off from life and responsibility; I mean a day off from being Pollyanna and people always relying on me to see the silver lining in every cloud, the good reason for why every bad thing is happening, the wonderful plan God is working out in every person's life. I work in a job that I love, but it's an environment where sickness abounds and people never get better, so they depend on their caretakers to always be cheerful and positive. And for the most part I am. I couldn't fake it; they'd know. But, sometimes, like lately, I'm sad. My guy's in jail (my choice I know), but I still miss him like hell, my only child is graduating and leaving the nest of just the two of us for some time now, and I don't feel much like smiling or laughing. It's all I can do not to cry every darn minute. But, you can't. And if you did, what good would it do? So I'd just like one day when I wasn't responsible for anybody's happiness, or good outlook on life, or faith in a Higher Being, and just let someone else take over the job for a day. Any takers?
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