K, sorry you going through this, sometimes it just hits us harder then other times especially around these foolish holidays. I can't wait untill they are over. Sending prayers your way, try to let God handle these emotions for you.
HUGS!

I know the feeling you are having and for me it does not have to be around the holidays for it to hit. Although I can say I just wished these days will pass as it will only get us closer to our loved ones. As for your boyfriend, I think he will never fully understand the emotional pain you are feeling or for that matter what we all go through until someone so dear to him gets taken from him like this. I do not wish it upon him or anyone. I also think with winter hitting it does not help that we dont have that ray of sunshine to keep us outdoors. So we ponder more on our loved ones situation. Hang in there two more weeks and we all start a new year. We will all make it through this. It is proven it just takes patience, strength and of corse time. (((HUGS)))

Hi Katie, Dont you hate those moments!?!? I'm always on the edge of losing it around this time of year. My melt down came when they played I'll be home for christmas, and I was at work......sobbing like a baby, and begging people just to let me be, one day, all are tears will be dried...and we will wake up from a long nightmare...and thank God we made it through......hang on. Love Denise

I've had the same kind of week Katie, if its any consolation. We had this really nice Christmas party at the Oriental Pearl, and many of my coworkers came with their husbands. The atmosphere was very cheerful and festive with all the husbands and wives holding hands or being affectionate in some way. And all I wanted to do was cry cause James wasn't there so I could hold his hand or he could put his arm over my shoulder, or just give me a hug to show he loved me just as much as any husband of that group loved his wife. And I couldn't even tell anyone there how I was feeling cause no one was there who knows where James really is. I've trusted a few good friends at work with the knowledge, but they weren't there. So the mall incident was very understandable. We can't help but miss our loved ones Katie and wish they cold experience all the joy and excitement of the season with us. But, some day we will have them with us again. And that hope must keep us going. If you'll help me to make it through, I'll try to help you as well. Hugs, Lorie Ann

Oh, Katie, I fully understand your feelings this time of year, expecially. I can't listen to Christmas music or tv as I am an emotional wreck, right now. I am so very sorry for us all........

Thankyou all of you for your support. I can't tell you how much it means to be able to share things like this with friends who truely understand how it feels, although I'm really sorry all of you have to feel it too. I try really hard to stay positive and concentrate on helpful things I can do to be supportive but every once in a while the reality of the situation just hits you hard. Thanks for understanding and listening.

I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN I WAS AT WORK A FEW WEEKS BACK AND I HAD TO DO A DOUBLE TAKE I THOUGHT I SAW DENNIS WALKING AROUND THE STORE AND I ALMOST RAN AFTER HIM

I am sorry that you are sad. Christms time is a very hard time for a lot of us. But with each passing day we are one day closer to the time where we can be with the ones we love again. Hang in there. It will get better. If you need someone to talk to I am here. God bless you.

I know what you are going through, I was watching "A Christmas Carol" on TV last night and my son and I watched it every year and I did fine until the very end and just started crying. I miss him so much. I agree with everyone when they say that this too shall pass. (Just wish sometimes that it would pass a little quicker) My thoughts and prayers are with you and we will get through this. Hugs, Karen

I went through the same thing last Christmas...seeing someone or something that reminded me, and I just couldn't hold myself together. So sorry hon. Look forward to the day when he'll be out and that will go away.

When my mom died on our way to a gathering on T-day we went ahead and got together a couple days later and at my brothers house on his refig. was a pix of my son with his daughter...I couldn't speak for forever but the tears just ran silently like streams down my face...sudenly so sad for all he had lost...for now though. ONLY FOR NOW! They will all have their new lives in a little while longer. Just a little while longer...that is the only way I can deal with it all.
We understand all too well.
Love Rhea

Sorry hubby says it is past my bedtime so we can go to work in a few hrs. LOL!
Mother henning me! GRRR! A sweetie but ...sometimes he hounds me!

Hang in there girls..together we can do this...a day at a time. Tears or not!
Big hugs Katie...I hate not having control to..especially in public...but no one will remember it...do not let it worry you. Tommorrow will be better...keep telling yourself that until it is true.

Last night we celebrated with our girls and their families. After we ate and as we opened gifts it hit me. I had a little meltdown because my son wasn't there in the room. I got lots of hugs, but not the one I needed.
We all know how you feel, Katie, and if you weren't sad there'd be something wrong. You care about your son, so your emotions run high. It's ok.
Hugs, Jan