I'm new to this whole thing, actually my husband is too...he's never been in trouble with the law and now he's in prison because of a partner that "pulled the wool over his eyes" and made a lot of bad business choices. Anyway, he's been there for the last 4 months and we have three children that I'm left to "pick up the pieces". I have a 5yo daugter, 3yo and 19 month ols sons. Daddy was/is everything to them...deeply involved in school, activites, rough housing, ect. Now I'm left alone, trying to fill a void. How do you explain to such young children what has happened? Right now they think Daddy is at a school and they've been able to visit s couple of times, but in Los Angeles they won't let me bring all 3 children and it makes it very hard, and to make things worse, they just moved him to another facility that you have to talk thru glass....how am I going to explain why Daddy is wearing a orange suit and talking on a phone behind glass (they think very highly of there father), can't hug, kiss, or have them sit on his lap...disgusting!! I find myself very alone...I don't reach out to anyone, everybody in both of our families just thinks I'm a such a great "sport" "cheerleader"..."Oh, your doing such a good job with yourself and the kids, keeping everything on schedule to keep things "normal" for everyone". It;s like everyone just wants me to go on and be a good little Mommy and wife and not look at the fact that my life has been seriously uprouted! In reality, they don't know that I cry almost every night when they go to bed. Alex won't go to sleep w/o me and Jayke has to sleep at the bottom of our bed because there so afraid Mommy's going to "go away too". The famlies don't know how hard it is that I know have to do everything that he once did....take out the trash, pay bills (hard when we have no money), home repairs, make all the meals and try and keep them safe happy and entertained while keeping the house clean all at the same time....aaahhh, I feel so overwhelemd...NEVER any alone time, never any "down" time. Also 3 weeks after he was incarcerated my sister got into a car accident and died...I haven't even dealt with that yet...I can't even keep up with all the emotions and all of the losses. Any advise from those that may have been down this road or from those that may understand? We are just your normal typical family (except Daddy's in prison haha).
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