Hello family i know i have not been as regular here as i should have been, but ive been trying so hard to keep myself busy to make this waiting game go by faster....well now i am down to 9 days until tony comes home and i am scared shitless. no one couild possibly know how i feel except my daily strength family. Ive waited this long, but now when it is so close i dunno if it is worth it. i dunno what to do or if he is going to change. have i waisted all this time for nothing. i am freaking out. i have a beautiful 7 month old that has never met his father and i dont want to keep him from him, but what if his dad is going to be a negative influence in his life and not a positive one? Im so sorry to put all my worries on you guys, ive just been bon barded with all these crazy thoughts and needed to get them out.
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