am in exactly the same position as several of the posts I've read here! We were married for 8 years and together for 13 years, I have no family nearby and I feel like a prisoner in my own home!I am professional and a very positive person but I'm struggling so much with this! I have three v small children 5, 2 and 1 and to the outside world I am coping brilliantly but inside I feel dirty and responsible for turning him gay! Even though the part of my brain that reasons knows that is not true....it's a horrible place to be and I feel that my husband has everything in his favour! He has moved out but still comes back three times a week to 'enjoy' family life while I'm left with all the sleepless nights that small children bring and the job of guarding his secrets....for the children's sake of course! I had been with him 13 years and was married for 8 years. He had been cheating on me and now is happily in a relationship with a man! i am naturally a positive and cheerful person but feel like I'm a very dark place with little prospects at the mo! I DO understand exactly how you all feel though, I just hope there is light at the end of the tunnel soon....I seem to cry all the time and I've knwon for 8 months now....I desperately don't want to become bitter but having a family was all I ever wanted and I feel so cheated xx