You see, Im one of thease over annylizing people who doesnt know how to turn her brain off. I have no idea what i should do because my head definatly says no but my heart is definatly saying stay. I wanna stay because when he doesnt use he is awsome... My best friend. I dont know how to be with out him. The other part is saying, I cant deal with his cocain addiction and im going coo coo because of it. when he uses i get so frustrated and hurt and pissed because i have absolutly no coping skills to handle his relapses. I want to support him for the sake of him and espechially the kids but god, its so hard. My friends dont understand that the reason i stay is because I have faith in him and i love him but ive also lost friends because Iv stayed. Im a stay at home mom and im hoping to go to college in january. and think that he will hurt my chances of doing good because i cant handle the relapses. But my kids are a nervous wreck when hes not there and it breaks my heart. I know if i duke it out and things do work out id be the happiest gurl in the world. Im so confused!!!!! Every time i do leave him, ill be fine then when i see him i just cant be away from him. I feel like hes my evil addiction. Im so lost!! PLEASE SOMEONE GIVE ME ADVISE!!!!!!!! This is so hard!! My head hurts!!
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