I WAS 10 YEARS OLD WHEN MY NIECE WAS BORN TO MY OLDEST SISTER AT 20.I WAS THE TAG ALONG BABYSITTER FOR MY SISTER AND SO THIS NEICE WAS THE SPOTLIGHT OF MY LIFE. SHE LEFT HOME AT LIKE 13 AND HAS BEEN ON DRUGS MOST EVER SINCE. DURING A CLEAN TIME SHE GAVE BIRTH TO 2 CHILDREN WHO MY SISTER PRACTICALLY RAISED TILL HER DEATH. MY NIECE WAS FOUND OCT. 17 IN A MOTEL ROOM, ALONE, BUT SOMEONE WAS THERE SHARING THIS WITH HER. I DID NOT GO TO THE FUNERAL,I AM OUT OF TOWN BUT I JUST COULD NOT GO. I CAN NOT PICTURE HER DEAD SOMEWHERE AND A STRANGER(MAID) FOUND HER. I HAD TRIED FOR SO MANY YEARS AND SO DID ALL OF US THAT LOVED HER. SHE WAS SO BEAUTIFUL ,,COULD HAVE HAD ANYTHING,BUT COULD NOT LEAVE IT ALONE,. I CANT PICTURE HER DEAD, I DONT KNOW HOW. I JOINED THIS FAMILY OVER MY SON, WHO IS A WORKING ADDICT, AND I FEEL SURE HE WAS AROUND HER MORE IN RECENT YEARS THAN I. PLEASE PRAY HE MAY FEEL THE NEED TO QUIT AS HE HAS SMALL CHILDREN, MY NIECE WAS ONLY 44 YEARS OLD. I MISSED HER IN MY LIFE AS I HAD THROWN HER OUT OF MY LIFE, BUT I FELT I HAD NO CHOICE. I COULDNT FACE HER ADDICTION, AS MY SONS. AM I DREAMING FOR A DREAM THAT HE WILL PUT THIS DOWN BEFORE THIS HAPPENS TO HIM? OR AM I BEING A BIG BABY NOT GOING TO SEE HER, AS I JUST CAN GO ON WITH MY LIFE AS LONG AS NOONE CONFIRMS THIS FOR ME.
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