left Mike right after surgery, I had my gall bladder removed and pretended that I needed to stay next door with my mom so she could look after me and my son Michael. It had been almost 60 days since I had moved in with him and the verbal abuse was too much and my account had been in the negative for 3 weeks and still racking up over draft charges, my checks were just enough to cover some of the fees he rang up with my credit.the Dr Jekyl Mr Hyde routine had gone too far many times I was lost and felt this was the only thing I could do, I had to get better for my son and had to start over, my dad said he would start going back to AA so that I would feel like I had a safe place I could go to. I did not pay my cell phone bill and thought it was a blessing so that he could not stalk me, I even told him I am moving back in with my parents, i need a safe and secure environment for me and my our son and you are not it. ( Huge Step!)I called the land lord and told her I would be breaking the lease because it was no longer safe for me and my son over there, and that if she would work with me I would be greatful. Well he is a salesman and talked the land lord into letting him stay there and that he will get them the rent, he is just squatting over there and demanding to see his son when ever he wants he will text my co workers to have me call him, he scares the living hell out of me and I fell like if I do not play nice, he will do something drastic, all of the furniture and my bed everything is still over there and he just thinks that it is his, all of which I either bought or brought when we moved in, I know that I should go and get it but I am really scared, he just wasted $500 dollars that his parents gave him for his 41st birthday spending 4 days straight awake smoking crack, and he is just scary looking the meaness is about to begin again the name calling the constant where is my son I wasnt to see my son bring him over to my house, I really just do not know what he is cabable of right now and I am just so scared I am not sleeping my nights are filled with night mares I am constantly looking out the window next door to see what he is doing, I should be taking this time now that I am back at work to just consintrate on working and going home to my son, but HE IS RIGHT THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He will not leave!!!!! I think I need some help here!!!! I am slipping. I finally stood up for myself and he still somehow has the upper hand. god help me.
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