I NEED YOU ALL TO TELL ME I DID THE RIGHT THING. TODAY IS THE 5TH DAY I HAVNT TALKED TO MY HUSBAND. SINCE HE IS BACK ON DRUGS I TOLD MYSELF I WAS DONE, I WASNT GOING TO CHASE AFTER HIM, PUT HIM ABOVE MYSELF, OR CALL HIM ANYMORE. I STOOD BY THAT DECISION AND HAVNT CLLED HIM SINCE LAST THURSDAY. HE CALLED ME AN HOUR AGO AND I WAS ON THE OTHER LINE SO I DIDNT ANSWER IT. HE LEFT ME A VOICEMAIL SAYING, AND I QUOTE... "RACHEL, WHATS GOING ON MAN? WHY HAVNT YOU TRIED TO CALL ME? WHY ARE WE PLAYING THESE GAMES?" HE WASNT RUDE BUT I THOUGHT HE WOULD SAY SOMETHING LIKE, I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU. I DIDNT CALL HIM BACK, INSTEAD I CALLED MY BROTHER WHO IS A PASTOR AND TALKED TO HIM FOR A HALF HOUR TO GET SOME REASSURANCE. I DID THE RIGHT THING RIGHT? WHAT IF HE ISNT BACK ON CRACK? WELL, REGARDLESS, HE IS STILL SHOOTING PILLS. I KNOW HE WILL CALL ME AGAIN AND I DONT KNOW IF IM STRONG ENOUGH TO CONTINUE NOT ANSWERING THE PHONE. PLEASE HELP!!!!
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