Hi everyone, I met the man i love a little over a year ago. He was a wonderful caring beautiful young man with a possitive attitude and a great lookout on life. A year before he was addicted to heroin and went to rehab. He held strong for a while then he started hanging out with the old crowd again. It was a weekend thing at first which still bothered me. Well i became pregnant this past november and am due the end of july. At this point his addiction has become an everyday thing and he has turned into a monster and doesnt care who he hurts anymore, friends family me etc.... He runs off for days at a time he lies he makes up outrageous stories, he has lost his job and pretty much everything else, friends family and so on. I am scared because i do love him but he has let me down over and over again. he owes me money and it seems he has totally forgotten about his unborn son and me and our other children. I am a depressed ball of nerves so afraid the next call i get will be the cops telling me he is dead!!!! I feel lost and isolated with no where to turn. he makes empty promises and runs to his junkie friends every chance he gets, he blames everyone and everything for his problem and every little thing is an excuse to go get high and threaten everyone around him. If it wasnt for the children and being pregnant i could just move on but its very hard. i have not seen him in a week now other than catching him at his dealers house and he has a court hearing soon for being caught with this stuff and being under the influence of it while driving he says he wants rehab but has made no attempts. i told him last night it was over and i never want to see him again but i am weak and am now afraid of what he may be doing as i speak. Any advice would help and any inspiration. PS. he lives with his grandmother because his mother was murdered and his dad is an addict whom he hates but yet he does the same thing. his grandmother is sick from everything but will not stick to her guns when kicking him out or getting on him about this horrible habit and what it has done to him. she is now just sitting back and hoping he goes to rehab. I do love him but i cant watch him kill himself everyday.
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