I am new to this group. I'm glad to know there is an anonymous support group available. I need someone to talk to about the struggles I deal with daily. I have been with my boyfriend for three years now. He didn't do drugs when we met. But he was dealing with a back injury from when he was in the army and was in pain. I helped him figure out how to use his veterans benefits, which lead to a prescription of 120 Lortabs a month. Around our one year mark, he started buying tabs in addition to his script. Not long after that, one of his work friends introduced him to snorting oxy. At first it was a once in a while thing. Quicky, it evolved into an every day thing. I finally realized he had a drug problem when I had back surgery. The first day after surgery, he was asking me to give him my pain medication. (It didn't seem to matter to him that I had just had MAJOR surgery and would be in severe pain without the meds) I told him no and he got very upset. I felt so completely crushed at that point... that him getting high was more important than me being in agonizing pain. His habit escalated to a three grand a month problem. The man I met, who had savings, and good income, was always broke and asking me for help. (We do our finances separately.) I was only making 2k a month before taxes, and he was making more than twice that amount. I went from having savings, to living paycheck to paycheck because I was handling most of the bills and groceries, and household goods. I have broken down and cried.. explained that even though money was an issue, I worry every single day that i'm going to find him dead. I told him that i wouldn't give him an ultimatum, but he needs to make his decisions wisely, and i'll decide if i can handle sticking around. He said he never knew it affected me like that. .. he promised to quit. then that evolved into him not buying pills.. then a couple weeks later, he was back to buying. At the beginning of this month he went to the VA and told them he had a problem. They gave hm suboxone. which he hasn't even taken. Now back to buying pills.. but now is lying to me and hiding it. What gives?
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