Hi all, just wanted to introduce myself and say what's happening for me at the moment. My partner and i have agreed that it is time for him to leave (this will be the second time) as we know our relationship is toxic basically. he is an addict, and i feel like i have gone made -i dont trust him, and i dont even know how to trust my own instincts anymore. He can wonderful one day, awful the next -actually it can change from one moment to the next. Even though him not being here everyday is necessary for my sanity and everyone in the house (we have a three month old, and i have two older children to a prior relationship), i know i will miss him so much, and i really dont have hardly any faith at all that he will get his act together and come back. i think he will probably slip back into old ways (i have not told him that i feel this way, just that i hope he does what he needs to do). I am working on just trying to look after me and the kids, and be productive and constructive in what i do hour by hour. It's tough. I dont know where he is at the moment, where he was last night, what he is up to or anything. I know what he says he is doing, but really that is meaningless. I hate feeling this way. Had to just get it off my chest :-(
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