I have been married for almost 2 years to a wonderful man when he's sober. His drug of choice is crack. We lived in a larger city and he stayed high all the time until I left him. We got back together right before Christmas. He had been sober for 6 months until yesterday. A little background, he works out of town alot in a secluded area for 2-4 weeks at a time doing 7 12's. He went back to the town where he is flown out of and last night didn't make his nightly call, when I called there was no answer. Being the nosy untrustful person I am when he was in town I set his cell up so I could see his calls online(he doesn't know). He called his "dealer" 6 times and wouldn't answer my calls I've read some of the other posts and also have experience with him going mia for days. He finally called me today but I didn't mention it. He did make it to work which I am proud of but I can't handle this. I am so untrustful that I spy, and I hate it. I shouldn't have to do it. Just needed to tell someone. I don't know how to handle this relapse.
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