well today is vday...and im happy and all but she makes it really hard for me.HER being my mom.She as well as my dad are alcoholics and users of coke.My mom only recently began using coke for what reason idk? and she says she dosent do it..but i find it wrapped in money in her wallet on occasion.Its killing me bc i am only 17 and i still need her very very much....and i tell her that constantly and i dont want to lose her.She chooses to go out to bars when i need her and i just cant deal.I began cutting last year to help with the pain...an have done other thingss to cope.im at the end of my rope here.i miss my mom,the old one,the one who would do anything for her little girl.i want her back,but this is a battle i am fighting alone.I dont want too hate her but i do.I do because she puts herself and kids in danger for this everyday.I need help with this....i cant deall with this anymore...imm slowly dying inside watching my parents do this.Help.Please.ANY ADVICE IS GOOD ADVICE...helpful or not.thank you.Nicole
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