My boyfriend was or is using crack. He obviously hid this from me for some time, we have a one year old baby girl together. I started noticing him changing my head told me something was up but my heart believed that it was him just being depresed. He stoped caring about his appearence, his financial situation became less and less he"borowed" my money my familys money all for reasons i nver saw and grocerys that never made it home. Then things started dissapearing, but it was never him and he would get angry at me for asking or talking about it. He admitted he smoked crack but he only did it once. he would never do it again, but all of these things kept happining and got worse and worse. At christmas my dad gave him money to get presents 1000 bucks and i never saw one red cent of it. And my daughter and son got absolutly no presents for Christmas from me. It hurt so much this was my first christmas woth my son for 3 years and our daughters first christmas of her life. He didnt even care, just shrugged it off like nothing. MY dad got me a laptop and it was gone within a month, He "left" it at his friends house and the guy took of and he couldnt find him. My momey started dissapearing the money for our daughters food and diapers, I would have to get money from my parents and i kept "loosing" it like it was never there. I finanly had enough when we were forced to go on assistance cuz he coiuldnt find a job and he took the whole check and effed of with everything but 70 bucks. I found plastc wraps with stuff that made my tonge numb, i found cans that were dented and smoked from outside our house. Things all cought up to me at once and I got the hell out before I lost my daughter from someone calling cas on us and went to my moms house. I told him after a few days that i wasnt gonna let him see our daughter till he went to rehab, Well that was about 2 months ago and he is still on a waiting list. I cant wait forever and all he dose is yell at me for keeping her away from him. But I am sticking to my decision. I let him see her I went to the apartment I had to get some pappers and its not my daughters fault her dad is an ass and 2 days later i herd a messege from a drug dealer on the answering service screaming hes outside our place waiting fr his money and hes loosing chops and hes not gonna get shot hif he comes up short. I was so mad and he denies he was using. He has been clean since i left. anyways none the less i am sick of waiting for this guy to man up when i know its unsafe to trust him ever agian, I am so hurt by this all i wanted was to be a family. I dont know what to do for help who to go to for advice what im going to do ima singel mother now with nothing but my baby. Im so scared that im going to loose her for what her father is doing. How do Iget him to get help if he dose do i let her see him again? This is all so overwhelming I need to get help but i dont know where to go for it. Im sorry i went on and on but ive just never gotten it all out at once. My heart is broken from this it is almost paralizing and then i have him blaming me for keeping her away from him i just dont know what i should do
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