Just went to my first Al Anon meeting. It was pretty informative and I think I will continue. Since my last post I have spoken with my addict mia husband who is so unfeeling it makes me even more sad. I think he's hanging on to his anger toward me to justify his behavior to himself. He is seeing some girl that he was partying with the night I told him that he needed help for his addictions. He has only seen his son 3 times. He has helped with some bills but it is very unpredicable as to when that will stop. He likes being in control and only calling me or texting me when he feels like it. He told me is not hanging around with anyone that uses drugs and I do not believe that....if that's true why didn't he do that when he was home and I was begging him to do so. Every time I hear his voice I cry and it doesn't even phase him. I don't know which is worse talking to him or never hearing from him. I was able to tell him that I confronted him the night he left and told him I was no longer going to enable him in an attempt to save his life because I love him. Then after he left, even knowing he was cheating on me I still reached out to him and his family to try and get him treatment that was how much I loved him ....again no feelings or emotions from him (it's heartbreaking). When I told him I was going to Al-Anon he was angry and I explained what it was and why and he said I know what it is for I'm glad you are getting help for yourself. I guess I just need to know if anyone has delt with such and unfeeling and convincing liar like my husband and is just him or a result of long term substance abuse that he can be so cold and callous and never look back at the family he left behind who loved him dearly.
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