I lost the father to my son, wich whom I luv very much, March 2006, to MIXED DRUG INTERACTION. We were together for 3 years. The last year of his life, he had started hanging out with "new" people and found himself caught up in the OXYCONTIN CRAZE... I swear, the last month of his life was soooo hard, for both of us. He would desperately try to hide his addiction, and in the beginning he fooled me. He really thought he was gonna beat this on his own. We both learned the hard way that he could NOT. I found him dead in his car in a bar parking lot. I have learned alot from my situation. I no longer blame myself, but ofcourse the "what if's" pop up in my mind from time to time. It's been a year and a half and I still have yet to date or even picture myself dating. I have lived on my own with our son ever since. Never have taken any meds for depression or anything (not to say I probably didnt need something in the beginning) Anyone else on here in a similar situation? I have yet to meet someone who lost a boyfreind or husband this way.