Hi all, I know its been a while since I've posted on here. Things have been going okay here, at least I thought so until tonight. Things with my husband just haven't "felt right', if you know what I mean. I wasn't sure he was using again but he has been staying out all night frequently (2-3 nights a week) with big elaborate stories of being stopped by the cops (our truck has no insurance right now) and things like that. Always makes it home by morning though, so I wasn't sure he was getting high or what. Last night was another night he was out all night. He came home at 4 in the morning with another big elaborate story about helping the local police bust one of his acquaintances who has been writing bad checks all over the place and feeling bad about being responsible for his friend going to jail, etc, etc, etc. Something just didn't seem right, so I called the person he was supposed to be with last night and found out he had been lying. When I confronted him about it, he blew up on me, saying he didn't like me anymore and all the hurtful things addicts say when they are caught with their pants down. After a big argument, I found out he is "hustling" and that is why he has been out for the last two months. When I asked him what he means when he says he is hustling, he tells me not to ask any questions. I just don't know if he will ever be happy living a "straight" life. He has always had money in his pocket and we are struggling and he just can't deal with it. Can I be with someone who could go to jail at any time? Can I even be with someone I don't even trust? I feel so devastated right now. I want to be with him, but I don't trust him and I just don't know how I would explain it to my family if we split up. This SUCKS! Please, I am not looking for people to pass judgement, but just understanding. Thanks a bunch.
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