my husband abused cocaine and then switched to percs/klonipan he is clean now. during this time he had some infidelities and i guess i'm wondering if it was him or the drugs. he was still emailing old girlfriends etc to try to get back in touch up until he went into detox. it's easier for me to getover the drug abuse than the infidelity part. it may seem selfish but i feel like the drug abuse is a disease. did anyone else have this experience. can drugs make you do these things? i want to forgive and forget but i'm still having a difficult time. it really affected my own self esteem and i've just finally started to realize i'm not the one who should be scared he is going to leave me for a younger woman or another woman. my insecurity makes him push me farther away. in my heart i know i've done nothing wrong. he admitted it in counseling that i've done nothing wrong and that i'm a good wife and mother. i realize so many men leave their wives for younger women with no responsibility (we have 3 children). why not? i'm sure it's way more fun that way. ahhhh! i'm starting to get angry and resentful. he should be concerned about me leaving him. when this was all happening i was fighting so hard to keep our family together to win him back. And why? I didn't do anything wrong. Any advice or similar experiences to share? thanks.
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