Let me fill ya in a little bit...I was in a relationship for 4 1/2 years on and off (more off than on) with a addict....the beggining was great and slowly got worse....anyways I will make this story short since it can really be long and drawn out...my boyfriend had left 2 weeks before christmas, he decided he would rather be high and with me....so I let him go...it was the hardest thing I have ever had to do...I didn't try and contact him or even look for him...then the day after christmas he called me, first talking about coming to get his things, then changing his mind when I didn't fight him and beg him to stay, saying he wanted to change and he missed being home....so I agreed he could come home, since he said he was going to start going to meetings, and making a change...so things were good for a little while...he went to meetings, and seemed like things were going good...then he started changing again....then on the 27th of January, he called me at work, told me he loved me, packed up his stuff and walked out of my life....ya know I was ok with that...I had already come to the terms that he would probably be leaving...and he did....I can't say I wasn't broken hearted because I was....this was the love of my life or so I thought...I accepted him even though he had demons in his life....so anyways he left and I tried to just move on with life....so three weeks passed and I got an email from him, telling me how he missed his best friend....how it was lonely where he was at...now I have heard all this a million times before...the "Lets just be friends" thing...it never works....EVER!!! I was baffled that he would think we could be friends after he walked out on me like he did....everyone I talked to about it says he is testing the waters to see if he can come back....I just don't see that....am I completely stupid??? I am pissed at what he did to me....I feel hurt and betrayed.....I don't see how we can be friends after all thats happened....I just need some support, someone to tell me I am not as crazy as I think I am.....so if you have any advise I would truly appreciate it...and please feel free to ask me anything about my relationship...I am sure somethings don't make sense....well thanks for reading
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