So I will just start from the begining, I gew up with an dual diagnosis mother mother.(alcohol,depressin,bipolar) We looked like the perfect brady bunch family. Very nice large home, I must say we are all pretty cute:) ha, we were for sure were well off or should I say my dad, but behind closed doors was a very different story. "The Mother"- the dunk, the liar, the cheater, the mental and physical abuser- from yelling, to trying to kill herself, to throwing food at my dad, many calls from jail, to showing up drunk to school functions. Me, my dad, and siblings would all lay in the same bed when it got late bc we knew we were in trouble bc she still was not home. We all knew it was going to be a long tearful night. I recently asked my dad ( I am now older and out of the house, married with children) why he let her stay there so long. He said back then it was so hard for fathers to get full custody and he did not want us to go there. Finally she was gone! She moved in a very nice house walking distance to everything(seeings she had no license- thankgod) Many years go by- we dont talk for those years- but for some reason you tend to go back to those people. A few years ago she lost that house- has been living with random people. She has almost died countless of times- been in state detox units- tried one of those sober houses- I even got custody over her bc the court made it sound so great and I could get her in anywhere. Which did not work! (staying with my aunt during this time) her sister finally could not take it anymore. SHe is now living in crappy hotels with random men and is homeless no clothes no money nothing. I know i took forever to say all this to actually get to my point, but it is my first time on here and i had to let it out!!! So getting to my venting:) I now know why you see so many drunk- mentally ill homeless people on the street! It makes me sick the state does nothing for these people. They will take her for two eeks and relase her. I dont get it. do they think it is going to help- just a waste of time. I mean these people do not know they are sick- that is why they can not get help on there own! All these places are only for people who want to go. They obviousley dont want to go. I just dont get why we "the state" can pay for all this useless crap- but there are people on the street- these people are peoples mothers, fathers, children, siblings. Until I actually really started trying to get her help now that I am older- I now finally get it! It is crazy to me. This is how people die, how crimes happen- these people (my mother) dont even know what they are doing. I mean there should be a state program to where: if their are multiple family memebers you can sign someone in!!!! But I learned that in GA they closed them all bc it cost too much money. I bet if they really did the math on how much money it cost too bury the innocent bc some mentally -addict person who is on the streets do something we consider crazy! they would take more time to support these "crazy people" It makes me sick that my mom is living with these people I consider sick crazy homeless people that will hurt her- but yet she is now one?! go figure...I honestly just had to let this all out- i know longer talk to her, bc i can no longer deal with the mental abuse from her- it is just still hard. I guess i am just hoping one of you will say you know this program we could sign her into and she could not get out and it is not $6,000 a month. but again i know this is doubtful - so this was more just to let my story out of me! thanks
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