I knew my son, my only son, had some issues with drugs. Afterall it is for this reason that he has spent a short time in jail and then months in drug rehab. After coming out of rehab he was doing ok. He attended meetings and seemed ok. Slowly he started back to hanging with friends and not holding a job and not coming home much. He had to go before a judge for some things he had done prior to going into rehab. This happened a few weeks ago. He was sentenced to house arrest and probation. He had gotten a job that he really liked prior to this and seemed happy. He was home because he had to be and I thought he was doing good. He was eating and he seemed happy. His girlfriend would come over to visit him. My son always told me that he never had an addiction and pot was his drug of choice. This week his parole office came for a visit and found things in his room. She called me at work to inform me that he was being taken to jail. He then calls me prior to going and admits that he has a problem with crack. He realized that he had a problem when he could not save any money. I also found out that he and his girlfriend were not a good influence on each other. I did not see any signs of this type of addiction and it scares me. I'm so depressed and feel empty in side because my son is not in my life and won't be for a long time. I miss and love him so much. His PO officer is going to recommend inpatient rehab because he really needs it. My son informed me that he did not take the rehab seriously prior. I'm not sure how I should feel. Hopeful because this may be the time it works for him. Or worried that he has not hit his rock bottom and is not committed 100%. I'm hoping that this stay in jail, probably a few months, will be the thing that finally works. His PO explains that it may not be. It's like having too much to drink and swearing that you will never do that again when you experience the awful hangover, but that wears off. I'm so scared that he is going to ruin more of his life or die. He already has wasted so much of his life with his addiction. He could be going to college right now, but instead he is in jail awaiting rehab. He has so much potential to do well in life and a career. I don't want to lose my son to this drug.
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